Insights..

Is self-mutilation (self-harming) such a bad thing? If it helps to get you through the days, it can't be that bad. From my point of view, though, if someone asked me WHY I thought that, I'd tell them 'Well.. would you rather walk into your childs room and see them with a razor blade pressed to their arm, OR walk into your kids room to find them hanging on a belt from their light?' So which would you rather??? Obviously, self-harm. Luckily, for my parents, I don't cut. Tried it lots of times before, but it doesn't seem to do anything for me but cause more stress because I have to figure out how to hide it while doing the dishes or whatever. So it doesn't help. But I'm thinking that bulemia might help with my self-esteem a bit. It might motivate me to do some more things, too. Because say I eat... 2 peices of pizza and a can of pop. Now I feel fat, because that's all I've eaten today, and I KNOW that that's binging and I KNOW that binging just makes you fatter than you were to begin with. So what should I do??? ...I shouuullllddd... find an excuse to barf it all up. So that's what I do. And THEN, now that I've barfed, I have motivation to brush my teeth and get rid of that taste, and to have a shower to get rid of that smell. So it's a win/win situation... for me. I get to have better cleansliness, and.. well, just better all-over appearence. Anyone want to share YOUR thoughts on the situation??